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it's about you it's about me

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released August 21, 2015

Music, album cover, recording, lyrics by Adam Mirakar

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Track Name: Beautiful & Polluted (Puget Sound)
Falling for you again and again
With nothing to break my fall
Except my body from when you last
Killed me off
And the color scheme stays the same
The blood I'm bleeding is always red
No matter what i give you
You're never fed

Gut you like a fish, string your innards out
To make sure you hearts beating without a doubt
How can I keep breaking ice
That just keeps freezing over in hell

Can't believe what you say to me
Your words are sharp, doesn't your tongue bleed?
I can finally smell the roses you gave
Sweet scent of them doused in gasoline
Are you thinkin' of me like I'm thinkin' of you
I know that's not the truth but I can't help but lie to myself

You're a punk rock opera, and I just realized how shitty you sound
Can't salvage a shipwreck that keeps sinking
I hope you drown

Don't fire until you see the whites of their eyes
The whites of your smile was the flash that left me blind
Buried me alive
With the thoughts and feelings of the Catcher in the Rye

Can't believe what you say to me
Your words are sharp, doesn't your tongue bleed?
I can finally smell the roses you gave
Sweet scent of them doused in gasoline
Are you thinkin' of me like I'm thinkin' of you
I know that's not the truth but I can't help but lie to myself

And I went down to the rock
To see the remains of you drown
The floating bits and pieces
I couldn't be more astound
What's nothing after burned up
Into bits and pieces right now
Let the tide take it away
And hope to turn it around
What's dead and gone can replenish it's life in a moment of time
I just hope there's enough for you and I to make it out alive
Track Name: Who Needs College When I'm Killing it @ the Bowling Alley
Crash and burn, live and learn
Don't look back or you'll make the wrong turn
And the snapping of the bones and splatter on cement
What's left of your hair's been dyed red
You're bleeding from your scalp
You'll need stitches on your face
From the punches on the wall that you took with utmost grace
Inside your broken cage
The steering wheel's impaled
In your chest and I wish you the very best

Panic shoots up through my veins
With every plunge of your claws into my skin
Their more like rusty nails
But how could I complain
When I've longed for your touch day after day
You're a parasite drilling through my brain
Eating grey matter with no restraint
Devouring my thoughts and slinking down to my chest
Ripping open my stomach and pouring out the rest

You're coughing up blood
At an incredibly fast rate
You wish you could hold it in but it belongs pouring out
In-between the cracks of the broken concrete
And your smashed in-teeth is the biggest smile I've ever seen
I could call 9-1-1
But that means you'd get help
Where were the paramedics when I was dying by myself
It's much more fun
To watch you drown
In your own blood as it cascades out your mouth
Track Name: Wetlands (This Isn't Sympathy)
I see a familiar face
Another chance to have some grace
New opportunity, new dawn
With as many shades as the setting sun
Dead soldiers in my squad
Died before they reached the warfront
Broken bonds, irreplaceable
Austere as a bleached cyclone

As the ivy grows, covering everything we know with poison
The confusions never lacking, always leaving without packing

The rain comes the rain goes
I'm still standing here all alone
Your mascaras running with time
Faster as you insert the knife
Stuck in reality that'll fade in time
Numbing dullness seeping in tonight

Throwing ourselves into decay
To combat the war on adolescent pain
Looking at people I used to know
Wondering how they became ghosts
Growing older in skin that seems to be shrinking
When the stitches start popping
Your still in your dress that you haven't changed
Since it was splattered with Kennedy's brains

Bleeding out wine and my flesh is bread
The savior who couldn't save himself
Because you like that style, you like it real
You like it rough because you don't know how to feel

The rain comes the rain goes
I'm still standing here all alone
Your mascaras running with time
Faster as you insert the knife
Stuck in reality that'll fade in time
Numbing dullness seeping in tonight
From the venomous retrospect surging again
And I'm still here
Track Name: Shit Season
It's the same shitty season over again
12 months of hell and every single one of them is you in the end
I want a change of scenery
Let's build it together and get the fuck out of this town forever
Kiss the cosmetic trees goodbye and try not to uproot what's supposed to be alive
And leave without a trace to the residents
No hugs exchanged because I wouldn't want to touch anything in this state
Might just burn up into flames from the suns rays

Don't you come back home
Don't you come back to me
I tell myself and make it a decree
One that's surely going to break off
And erode in the rain
Rusting like the sword in the stone going nowhere with the pain
And the numbing label that misleads the pain
Not taking enough to drive myself insane
Stuck without a plane
High in midair
Looking for the next flight to take me anywhere

It's not the sunshine state of mind
But the never ending light that kills me inside
Symmetrical against the night skyline
Perfect with the glowing neon and I wondered how I deserved this
Because all it takes is a little push, wind, or gravity
And you'll be splattered on the concrete

Come at me come at me in disguise
I couldn't tell the truth from the lies